Mood: Apathetic ; Issue 17 - I Must Be Emo
Happy Turkey Day to folks who are getting ready to stuff their mouths with delicious food today. Weird times may mean smaller gatherings, or none at all but it’s OK, we’re all here together.
And if you are with family, feel free to go ahead and read them this issue as well as my past issues, which you can find in the archives!
1/1/05
Wow writing 1/1/05 is such a strange feeling… I haven’t written in a while. Let’s see Recap: Christmas rocked. I got an IPOD and Emily gave me a freakin’ GC Poster!! That gift made my Christmas. I just figured out I’m not goth or punk. I’m get this EMO! Ha! Took me a while to figure that out. I’m actually a combo of Punk/Emo. Ms.Lascara sux. I hate her. Still barely passing math. Oh well. I actually still like Joey but I'm seeing a light. There are other cute guys. A LOT of other cute guys. I’m really close to Charlie. He’s like my little brother. He knows a lot about me. Oh.. NO ONE and I mean NO ONE likes that fucken bitch Tiffany. Julie, Emily, Ally, Charlie, Lucy, and I think Paulina don’t like her. Of course I’m neutral but I’m closer to hate. I just don’t like her one bit. Hell I could probably say Joey doesn’t like her either. I’m actually happy that no one likes Tiffany. I according to Charlie have no self esteem. So NOT true. Well my ‘rents are asleep. I gotta snooze too. Gnight.
Anna Hu
1/2/05
Great I got school tomorrow THAT SUCKS! Dammit! Oh well. I wanna bitch more about Tiffany. God how much do i hate her. She’s so annoying. How can people put up with her? Oh yeah, I have this freaky thought in my head that’s implying Joey is gay. I don’t know why but I dunno. Let’s just forget about it. I plan on getting black framed glasses and layers for high school and like fifteen million sweaters. Ha Emo. I have issues God. My dad’s telling me to snooze so imma snooze. So I won’t fall asleep in class. Gnight.
I don’t really know why I disliked Tiffany so much. I can’t remember what she did to me or why I had to rally behind others who disliked her as well. I always tend to hide my disdain with neutrality, but according to others, when I don’t like someone you can tell very easily. Makes you think what fuels the hatred in a teenage girl.
Also, the toxic thoughts I had as a teenager in the early 2000’s really embarrass me. Why did I think it was necessary to assume that someone was Gay just because they weren’t interested in me.
On a lighter note, I am Emo, friends. There it is, written on paper. I had some sort of fantasy of being a cute emo girl with thick black framed glasses and wearing lots of sweaters. I mean, I guess I’ve sort of accomplished that. If 13 year old me looked at 29 year old me’s fashion they’d be OK with it, I hope..
Thanks for reading this week. I hope everyone enjoys their holiday and gets some rest! I’ll see you next week!